Update

As time has pasted I have looked back at my testimony and It has amazed me. God is Awesome, Amazing, Astounding! He did all that for us because of my yearn and hunger for his love, and presence. As time goes by we need to keep in mind all the tests that come to play when we are following such a pure and spiritual journey. The enemy will try it all to get you to sway.  Sway was the way I slowly fell.
 
 I some how fell into deep depression, my husband was acting very different, things went bad. I didn't seek the Lord when I should've. I allowed myself to fall. I went back into this pit and I felt that this time the Lord had punished me for being disobedient. I felt as if he did not want me to step foot in church, nor allow me to feel his presence. I began feeling as if my connections with certain people were diminishing. The financial struggle began. I started worrying more. Each day I was stressed out, frustrated. Every time there was something that began to bother me it became an endless domino effect of other things that bothered me till I became frustrated. Once again my husband and I were at each others neck. These series of events occurred slowly right under my nose without my notice.
       But I remember one thing when I realized I was starting on a habit that I fought for the Lord. I prayed that God would help me get rid of this filthy smoking habit. This habit which deteriorated my communication, and connection with Him. These were my last thoughts before it all began. But as Mathew 12:43 says "When an unclean spirit comes out of a man, it roams through waterless places looking for rest but doesn't find any. Then it says "Ill go back to my house that I came from' And when it arrives, it finds the (house) vacant swept, and put in order. Then off it goes and brings with it seven other spirits mor evil than itself, and they enter and settle down there. As a result, that man's last condition is worse than the first."
    Therefore that result 'worse that my last condition, I began smoking so heavily due to stress I became sick. I found myself coughing so hard I was almost throwing up, and head shortness of breath. I had to go to the hospital where they had to ex ray my chest and thank God I wasn't hospitalized but prescribed an inhaler. OMG I said to myself I have asthma! I haven't had an asthma attack since I was 11yrs old. ThATS IT I QUIT. From that day forth I quit smoking for my health......
         In the midst of it all I received a call from Lisa, I bumped into a 'Holy Soldier' Wanda and it was a reconnection all over again. I prayed! I yearned for the Lord I realized once again that these worldly things and feelings cannot compare to what our HEAVENLY FATHER can provide. It is surely a different world when you become apart of Gods' World.
     I am not ashamed of my mistakes they are what make me realize the wrongs and with faith help me build a stronger and better me.

His Love

I write this portion with a little of what is happening now and what happened to get us to where we are now. I write this in hopes of those lost, misunderstood or even down and out due to their discouragement in Christ. When one stumbles and or hiccups. You tend to feel like ' I'm just not as special or into it like they are i don't belong'. Message: He loves you. Jesus Loves You, God Loves You. He forgives you!!!! He forgives!! Even if you stumble, curse, go back to old habits, He still loves you he still forgives you.
      Even when you sway he waits for you. Morning and night.
   Some of my company tend to look at me very differently because of my love for God and I don't care. Why because the Love I receive from the Almighty cannot be compared in the flesh. His love is stronger than our love... human love.
 Lisa and her mother are great people they helped us move and paid for the week at an extended stay. After that we were under Love Orlandos' wing. Jane from love Orlando is another amazing woman.  We were transfered to a bigger hotel being that there were 7. As my husband worked there were other things that were being a problem being that we were moving from place to place the kids had trouble going to and from school. I explained to Lisa the situation and problem solve. She contacted her network of friends and the kids had a ride. She always said "God's got it". We had volunteers thanks to Kristen from Take Them A Meal was sending us meals every now and then to lighten that fact that our 2nd hotel didnt have a kitchenette.
 One week later after attending First Baptist of Orlando  for the first time we met up with Jane and received the best news in 2012.  An opening for a new home. We moved to our new 4bedrm 3 bth apartment and were helped with furniture.
                                                All of these people gave us their, His love.
     I just want to Thank God first and foremost for showing us you Love us through our friends. I thank you all for being so obedient to the Lord when he called for your help in everything. I love you all, you guys are awesome!!!!!! God Bless all those that helped our family to be where we are.

Shine Like a Baby's Smile

As February came my ambition to seek the Lord's presence, love and build a stronger relationship was growing. I was hungry for it. Jesus was my high. I dont mean to say that as if I am a drug addict just addicted to the Lord. As I attended Calvary Assembly I felt so alive. I showered my tears and fears and let all my worries on to God. Everywhere I went or stayed I called on the Lord and I knew and felt he was there.  He devoured my problems as I went on. My relationship with God was like a gentle but frim grasp of a baby's' hand
    One Sunday afternoon on my trip back home (shelter) waiting at the bus stop.  A woman stopped by us and asked us for a ride. With her hand on her chest she said " Do you need a ride? I feel Jesus is telling me to give you a ride" We were all in shock. How could a woman like her want to give us a ride? She looked like a model from a Vogue magazine. Things like that have never happened to us ever. She was really nice, and it didn't seem as if she wanted to harm us being that she too was wearing Church attire. Her name was Lisa. We got in and I told her the Bus Terminal in Downtown was alright to drop us off at. I didn't want her to find out that we lived in a shelter.
     As we talked and we got to know each other she asked me where did I live. The truth? I live at the Coalition for the homeless. She said " Maybe we should take you there instead?" She asked. "If that's alright with you" I responded. She asked how did we end up there. I told her about the previous church we attended and how the pastor was also his boss. If you didn't attend church on Sundays or Wednesdays expect hours to be lowered or no work for the week. It happened to some of the men that worked for him. My husbands hours were dropped even when we were attending church. My husband was looking for another job during his free time.  Then one day he was told to seek work elsewhere. We were evicted from our home stayed from place to place and ended up at the Coalition. Lisa and I  exchanged numbers and she met my husband when we arrived. She told my husband that she is going to make a couple of calls to see if she can help him find work. I thought great we're going to be OK if he gets a job we will be able to get out of here. THANK YOU FATHER!! Hallelujah!
    I was praying.... Thanking the Lord for this blessing we were about to receive. A job... A job that would help our family rise out of this place. Don't get me wrong we were grateful for having a roof but at the same time destroyed by the way the place made us feel.  She called to ask about my husbands work experience.  Later on that day she asked me if how would I feel if we found a bigger place. Okay I thought that would be great my husband would be able to afford once she helped him with a job. We could be there until we became stable and got a bigger place.My thought was this would happen maybe another couple of weeks from now.  But then she said okay so get your things packed and around 12 tomorrow I will be picking you guys up. "Wow okay" I wasn't in tears but my husband and I were in a state of surprise.??? Wow she is an amazing woman!!!!"Thank you" We kept telling her." Don't thank me thank Jesus" She would respond. The next day we were packed and ready to be picked up. We met her Mom a marvelous woman and truly funny. She had a way with words you would think she was a professional comedian lol. We had a little trouble at first trying to find a hotel to stay at but the Lord prevailed and we were settled in ready to pick up the kids from the Boys and Girls Club. Lisa came in with me and said hi to everyone there. My kids were very excited to see her.  Everyone I told this story to called her an Angel. We all thought she was an Angel. In our hearts she still is.

   My husband was still missing a job. The next day while he went to the Shelter to pick up the rest of our belongings we had left at the shelter Lisa called me. She was on her way to pick him up for a job. He was at the shelter so she went over there to pick him up. I couldn't believe that she went out of her way to do that. He started his job. My husband had a job! All those prayers, tears, endless searching and the Lord prevailed through Lisa. I thank the Lord for blessing me with such an amazing friend.
   Everything that has happened in our lives was because of believing and hoping that God will pull through. That God would shine his light upon us and make us shine like a baby's smile. The joy in my heart was so overwhelming I could not help to sit in my hotel room and cry. I cried not because of pain or suffering but for happiness. I searched God and He found me. I placed my troubles and pain in his hands and he cured them. Jesus you really do exist, and I feel closer to you more than ever.

The Begining Of a Beautiful Relationship

        In December I was a lost, overwhelmed mom. My husband and I were at eachothers necks. We couldn’t be in the same room, our homeless shelter room. We were there for 3 months with all 5 of our kids and went through a “rock bottom road”  We had constant arguments over ridiculous things. I found myself sad, depressed, tired, and at times cried myself to sleep.  Knowing that one was homeless, some of the  workers in there did not give you the best vibe. You could tell by the look on their faces that they saw you as a lower form of a human being. I never let that put me down. I never let my emotions get the best of me. We always looked like a happy family because at least we tried to give the kids a different perspective of our situation. I was always hopeful that something would happen one day that would get us out.

       In search for what was missing in my life, that emptiness that I was yearning to fill, I turned to the bible. I started reading Proverbs, Mathew, Luke. Anything I could grasp or had the time to read. I started praying. That’s when it was as if I was undergoing a spiritual battle, because I turned to the Lord and cried out to him. Staff at the shelter would write violations just to throw us out. My husband would start arguments for no reason.  I wouldn't give up praying or reading. Eventhough I was criticized by my husband I didn’t care. I wanted to go to church. I wanted more of the Lord. I needed Him.

        My mom once told me that smoking, drinking and doing drugs was of the world and that it damaged the temple inside of you. It causes your communication with God to become distorted. So I descided as my new years resolution to quit smoking. I was never a drinker only occasionally. I hated drugs so I knew it wouldn’t be hard to give up smoking. I quit smoking once years ago. It really is not an addiction, its more like a habit. I said to myself that I would give up smoking and receive the lord starting January.

       When New Years came, I said good bye to all the sorrow, the filthy habit and turned to my Heavenly Father and received Jesus in my prayer. I was filled with joy and the yearn to get to church asap. A friend from a previous church  we attended told us to pay a visit o Calvary Assembly.  We never did being that my husband lost all interest in attending any church. He thought the things that were going on in church were not Godly and saw they used religion as a business. But I needed to be in the Lords presence so the Lord could coat me with his love. I started going to Calvary every Sunday with all of the kids. We took 2 buses to get there and we didn’t care. The kids loved the church and were so excited to keep attending Calvary. I went to the altar 1 Sunday after church and asked Pastor George Cope for prayer. I told him our situation and we prayed.  

Introduction

It has been several months and I have finally taken the time to sit down and write to the world the miracles that have happened in my life. I recently converted into Christ and have been on a roller coaster of miracles. God has shown his love through many people and many manifestations. Our family at this time is extremely blessed and greatly appreciative of everything that  has happened and keeps happening. In this blog I will be writing about my walking testimony with the Lord. The scriptures that guided me and lifted me. The people i have met, prayed with and have helped my family in ways i thought would never be possible. I wanted to take the time to do this because i would like to share this with the world and tell the world that through faith in Christ, in God you will realize that your life will change as my life changed. If any questions come about, please feel free to ask. Thank you for taking the time to read my blog and hope you enjoy. May God bless you and show you his love the way he did to me. :)

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